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It has been a few weeks since I have posted, but it has been unavoidable. I hope that I am comprehensible tonight. My reason for returning tonight is a 12 year old little boy, who shares the same rare disease as my son is at home tonight with his family in Hospice. With only 3,000 patients worldwide it is devestating when any of them pass. This little boy though is special. He has touched so many with his heart. One of the most thoughtful and selfless of anyone I’ve ever met. Because my son is unique in the eyes of the doctors and researchers because of his anamolies and issues it has been difficult to find anyone elase with this disease similar to him. This little boy, Nicholas was close. He too has had many of the same issues growing up. His Mom comments to me all the time how seeing and hearing things about my son always brings back memories of when Nicholas was growing up. He became a beacon. An older child with this dreadful disease that we could envision our son being. All the things he was able to do that at the moment seem like a fantasy to us. Still it provided hope for what I envisioned my son’s future to be like. Having a quality of life.

Now this beacon is in his last days, maybe hours. His Fanconi Anemia caused an aggresive form of Leukemia with no treatment options available because of a type of lung infection colonization that could not withstand the extreme stress and toll on the body of a Bone Marrow Transplant. This little boy has fought so hard and overcome so many odds for so long and now he lays waiting to be called from this earth. Seems so unfair to have to fight and suffer like that. While I have spent time at my son’s bedside on several occassions uncertain if he would survive, knowing that agony and pain makes it unfathomable to consider KNOWING your child will take his last breathe soon. My heart is heavy for this family. Why do children have to suffer and die? I have quite literally held my son for most of the day. Thankfully, at jsut 18 lbs despite being 2 1/2 years old has its advantages. Especially for times like these. Living with the burden that you are expected to outlive your child is very difficult. While you try to focus on the moment and the positive the thought still remians in the back of the mind. I wrote about that in an earlier post about making tomorrow something to look forward to rather than dread. Days like today however make that task very difficult to achieve. May God grant Nicholas a few more special moments with his family and embrace the family with peace during this very difficult period. I leave you with a story that was shared with me today about facing death.

A sick man turned to his doctor as he was preparing to leave the examination room and said,  ‘Doctor, I am afraid to die. Tell me what lies on the other side.

Very quietly, the doctor said, ‘I don’t know.  ‘You don’t know?  You’re, a Christian man, and don’t know what’s on the other side?’

The doctor was holding the handle of the door. On the other side came a sound of scratching and whining, and as he opened the door, a dog sprang into the room and leaped on him with an eager show of gladness.

Turning to the patient, the doctor said, ‘Did you notice my dog?  He’s never been in this room before.  He didn’t know what was inside.  He knew nothing except that his master was here, and when the door opened, he sprang in without fear.

I know little of what is on the other side of death, but I do know one thing…
I know my Master is there and that is enough.

I wish that children did not have to suffer with disease, sickness, pain, and death. Parents should never have to watch their child die. Please join me as I pray for this child and his family and for ALL families faced with this burden.

Thanks for reading my point of view(with a heavy heart),

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